Clouds, by Kars Landman

Clouds

by Kars Landman

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1.	Run 04:25	lyrics	buy track
Everyday I’m moving onward Towards a place that’s not enough Always looking for an answer To things I haven’t thought of And I would love to get the point here Feel complete, enough for once Forever dabbling in distrust Can you feel this? (Oh, how) you wished you’d squeeze all that you could Out of your life Just like all the others do But you know you won’t You let it always go to waste Oh, you try But being worthwhile for someone It’s not meant for you Why do I feel so out of place here? They look so happy everyday Making plans, get so excited Why can’t I have this? So I give up Let it all just lay here Get up, find a better place Where I can find all of the joy I’ve had Everything’s better than here (It’s time to run) I’ll leave a life I’ll never live Get away Pack up everything and go I’m better off out there Yeah, I could stay but what’s the point? I’m useless here I’d use the fire to warm those hearts Where they want me to Let’s get excited By hoping on our distant dreams I’ll burn my bridges and get out of here Oh, so leave the life I’ll never live Get away Pack up everything and go I’m better off out there Yeah, I could stay but what’s the point? I’m useless here I’d use the fire to warm those hearts Where they want me to
2.	Kars Landman ft. Tjalke Zijlstra - Dreams 04:04	lyrics	buy track
Now I am here A new place, new song What a mistake to wait so long Wonderful faces all around This beautiful place I’ve found A strange scent in the air Is leading me towards her What beauty I have found I guess that everything is sound You are here And I have found A way to get us off the ground No need to fear Just hold on to me We’ll be in the clouds Let’s just stay here Live on this cloud of dreams forever I don’t belong here But I feel so at home here With you A brand-new life to live My fears have gone out with the wind Just keep me close to you And live this life I never knew Let’s just stay here Live on this cloud of dreams forever I don’t belong here But I feel so at home here With you All my life I’ll spent up here There’s so much more than I would’ve ever known Guess I’m not reaping what I’ve sown By leaving y’all alone
3.	Paradise 05:42	lyrics	buy track
Open up the door Let the sun in Sparks flying through the room Burn my eyes while dreams take over “Let me lead you above paradise” I thought I heard her speak “Where the streams turn into waterfalls And you can gently fall asleep You can just lay down your life here You’re safe with me, at home The smoke is rising from the trees No need for you to care” Let me see into your eyes And tell me where we go Let me lose forever here There’s no way I’ll understand you But I’ll be here till the end of my days Always floating onto nothing (There’s no way I’ll leave you) You grab me, throw me in Out of nowhere Up and out and back again Why the hell would you leave the light on? “Let me lead you above paradise” I always hear her speak Does this stream become a waterfall? If I still have hard times falling asleep Tossing Turning I can’t see you Tossing Turning Where’d you go? Tossing Turning You are nowhere Tossing Turning I am Nowhere But my mind is everywhere These faces of you I cannot confirm And nothing is ever real to me I’m nowhere But I’m not headed out of here These faces of you They’re everywhere But none of them are ever real to me Let me see into your eyes Show me what I won’t find Can I really trust you? Let me see into your eyes And tell me where we go Let me lose forever here There’s no way I’ll understand you But I’ll be here till the end of my days I’ll keep dreaming of a change here
4.	Smoke 04:10	lyrics	buy track
Everything is out of sight I cannot grasp it all The clouds we’re living on Drift more and more from me It’s getting darker here, you know But it doesn’t scare you away You behave different now I’m sure it isn’t me No, I cannot sleep at night I’m awakened by the sky From pink clouds to smoke What has come to be? You know how when up here I feel Like the world is in my hands But you were something I could never grasp, oh The pink has left for clouds so grey Something must’ve changed in me Was there always smoke Or did it happen just today? Oh, this fire in our hearts Must’ve found another place To reside, because the whole world is ablaze No, I cannot sleep at night I’m awakened by the sky From pink clouds to smoke What has come to be? You know how when up here I feel Like the world is in my hands But you were something I could never grasp, oh No, I cannot sleep at night I’m awakened by the sky From pink clouds to smoke What has come to be? You know how when up here I feel Like the world is in my hands But you were something I could never grasp, oh
5.	Wondering 04:25	lyrics	buy track
Am I here, just because I was trying to get away From a life where I never truly knew how to behave Am I here, just because I love the feeling Of how she moves all over me I’m hoping, debating Sometime we will be okay There should be A reason Why I’m still staying in this place Trying my best to keep up pace But never getting closer Whatever She holds me She holds me Am I here, just because I was trying to get away From a life where I never truly knew how to behave Am I here, just because I love the feeling Of how she moves all over me Hold on, show me now You chose to live with me somehow What is this you’re trying Are you even trying? You, unreasoned one Have so much to leash me on I’m following unknowing If it’s okay Now I’m here, wondering if it’s best to get away From a life where I don’t know how to behave Am I here just because I don’t know where to stay And I’m scared to throw it all away? I should find a way out of here Back to a place I know And there I’ll finally see myself As everything I’m meant to be And all I never had I will finally feel complete, I hope So where do I go now? Where do I go? Where do I go now? Just tell me where to go How do I find A place to rest my soul When comfort seems so far away? I can’t let go I’m kept here willingly But I should be build up not broken down
6.	Another Distortion 03:45	lyrics	buy track
What do you see? What do you see? This can’t be all I’ll see And all I’ll hear And all I’ll know I’ll need to choose myself Cause there’s no way that she will let me go I’ve held on for so much time But nothing changes in your mind It’s all distorted, I can’t get out How has this taken so much time? I will have to cross the line This ain’t a place I truly know
7.	Leaving 04:06	lyrics	buy track
Still here waiting, she’s holding me tight In one of her ways that just doesn’t feel right Like a predator, she will not let go Of what she just caught with her own claws Not able to move Not able to see I’ve had enough of this I’ve waited For something divine Way too long hoping For something to shine I’ve waited Forever to find If you adore me Or just here to distort my mind I should be leaving I’ll lose my way again I should be leaving I’ll lose my way again somehow this year I should be leaving I’ve waited For something divine Way too long hoping For something to shine I’ve waited Forever to find If you adore me Or just here to distort my mind You’ve had enough time, to finally come clean I never saw what makes you behave like this It’s done now, because I’ve waited for so long But I finally changed up my mind now I’m leaving you can’t hold me down There’s no way you loved me with how you behaved
8.	Free 05:59	lyrics	buy track
The door has closed behind me No regret has taken hold yet Alone strolling through the darkness I’ve never felt more at home No need for their acceptance I know I’ll never be good enough For them, for me, for you But as my life’s been Floating all along Regret won’t be a song I’ll sing anymore Somehow I’ve left it all, with no remorse I couldn’t myself But this is where it ends I wanted to be seen whole That never happened there Now I don’t need it to I shouldn’t need someone To accept me as I am Hoping on a distant dream Hasn’t gotten me anywhere I don’t need them to accept me So now I live for myself It’s over now, it’s over now Somehow I’ve left it all, with no remorse I couldn’t myself But this is where it ends I wanted to be seen whole That never happened there Now I don’t need it to I’ve closed the door behind me A new life awaits The weight upon my shoulders The weight of all you were I’m helpless now I want to be I’m free I’m free Somehow I’ve left it all, with no remorse I couldn’t myself But this is where it ends I wanted to be seen whole That never happened there Now I don’t need it to
9.	Peace 07:14	info	buy track
10.	Lost 04:58	lyrics	buy track
I’ve seen the world Walked million ways But pieces never fell in place I know, I’ve wasted All my chances Never cared for what I had From pink clouds to pouring rain I feel like I’ve gone insane at least A thousand times too much this year I’ve been used, abandoned, broken But I never gave up hoping that I’d get what I deserve one day (I guess I did) When everything is lost And you can’t find forgiveness In a place you once belonged You lost your way Now all is said and done You cannot get much further When you’ve travelled this far I guess I revealed myself Nothing more than a useless mess, I am A heap of regret, someone That never will be able to overcome I’ve been used, abandoned, broken But I never gave up hoping that I’d get what I deserve one day (I guess I did) When everything is lost And you can’t find forgiveness In a place you once belonged You lost your way Now all is said and done You cannot get much further When you’ve travelled this far I’m less than I would want to be Less than they expect of me I live to love, but I don’t love to live There’s no point in anything Nothing here I’m putting hope in And it’s all because, all because I’ve gone too far, too far to survive it all When everything is lost And you can’t find acceptance In a place you once belonged You lost your way Now all is said and done You cannot get much further When you’ve travelled this far Everything is lost

about

This record is the largest musical experiment I have ever done. After the heavy, emotional record that was 'Everlasting...', I came up with the idea to extend my musical pallette, and make a pop-record: No metal, only clean singing allowed. A lack of motivation, which obviously occured, delayed the record immensely, and even made me start on record 5, which by the release of this record, is finished instrumentally. When coming back to the demos I had made, I came to the conclusion that there was potential in this 'poppy' material, I just needed to make it my own. Restraining myself less, and just focussing on well-written songs sparked some energy back into the project. The singing isn't perfect, but it's by far the best I have ever done, as is the production. I am proud of what this record turned out to be, and anxious for the response.

credits

released July 15, 2020

Music and lyrics by Kars Landman
Instrumentation, vocals, production, mixing and mastering by Kars Landman
Additional violins on track 2 and 3 by Tjalke Zijlstra

Album recorded and produced in Reaper
Samples used from Kontakt 5 and SampleTank 3 libraries