Everlasting, Ever-Fleeting

by Kars Landman

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1.	Renovate 04:15	lyrics	buy track
See the wasted dream You thought was everything Now it’s all in a bitter mind Stroll through the ghost town Try to renovate A building that never was See us miles apart From worlds away Nothing to break this down It’s not what you wanted Not what you needed But it’s all just to keep her sane See the wasted dream You thought was everything Now it’s all in a bitter mind Will you try To get back Back to me? It’s so hard To be on the sideline
2.	Flying 04:54	lyrics	buy track
Waking the demon From a heart I can’t control You’re flying down the halls again Never make the right move Never see it end Even if I say the words they don’t connect Misconceptions, hidden feelings Nothing works my way Far from see-through, feeling what? Nevermind, I won’t know Coming through means finally calming down Atleast, that’s what had to happen Coming through means finally calming down At best, without me you’ll feel better Have I not done enough? Haven’t I done enough? Consuming all I loved in her The things I thought we could endure I couldn’t feel, i couldn’t see All this shit, her misery Showed before, no real cure For all the things we would endure I was wrong, she got worse Keep strong, this will reverse See it through With or without me Just stay alive…
3.	In Between 07:04	lyrics	buy track
Floating In a state of mind I do not want Should I walk towards the sun And deny where I am? Dishearted By what I feel, how much it aches Putting all I am to waste Is it worth the try? Wait for the day Where I’m finally sane And can leave this all behind Not destroy the past Can’t keep going on like this The smallest thoughts, they pull my heart apart The never-ending chaos Still here Let this fall away for good Excuses I should deny Hanging on, but when it’s gone I’ll be glad I took the try Lift this weight of my shoulders And elevate my life Let me reach the highest highs And help others get there with me Confirming my assertions Only to forfeit Goals I’m striving towards Always need the helping hand What will I ever accomplish on my own? Always in wake of decisions Missed oppurtinities Setting off the timebomb in my mind Hold their thoughts too dearly A way too conscious life I am disowning myself
4.	Beyond the Grave 06:11	lyrics	buy track
No decision without reasoning I cannot waste this, it’s too long And all the time that I knew this I’d never thought of the joy that much For the times that come my way I’d knew the reasons I had to give But a fulfilling life, that made me proud Was never what I’d had to live Now I watch it crumble Look up to the sky way too much Hoping for miracles to fall my way I’ve chosen where I decay Fallen into the ways of the world The dilemma haunting me What’s the worth in all this time? So everytime I feel I fucked up my whole life Expect to make a change To walk away But where do I go from here? A future far from stable Survive for all this time Too long I saw the light shine Quite far from the choices I made I can’t wait this out, it’s never too late So if I’ll be walking out the gates Greeted by thunder No ways into the darkened world I left It had to hurt And is the future so bright now? Or was I always too late? I am my own life I am my own death I am my own mistake Stuck here to live with on my own These bright moments I dim myself Will I find out what’s best for me? No The selfmade man That made himself Faulty foundations Which he built is life upon To live and prosper Under a blackened sky Is to fail for a lifetime In a world of comfort I will never know On this earth it all is failing There’s no point in resisting Wanting way too many times To ascend beyond the grave
5.	Aimless 03:06	lyrics	buy track
Fallen in despair The well’s run dry No end, trembling into another’s life And where to go? We just made amends Of nothing I blindly followed Down where we would die Aimless I moved along Aimless I moved along Here before But now I’m back again In this world I thought I left A desperate state of mind Never just too far away To be gone from my life Always coming back I’m confronted with myself again Can I recollect and Rewind my life? Useless and disgusting Is this broken mind This isn’t me I’m just like you The long forgotten But this time I’m alone Now that I’m in the same state that you are Oh, I’d love to say I care, I just can’t Like you never cared for me Or did you? By making it so easy to move on Nothing left Our distorted minds were freed Aimless we move along Aimless we move along
6.	Follow the Wolves 04:51	lyrics	buy track
Mindlessly following ways that were showed me Towards a goal that never truly satisfies How can we ever doubt the cause When all that we wanted, is made to lose? So now I’ll fall down Now I must see The right way that’s always clouded Make it hard for our eyes to see Why would You want us to fail when we try? Doubt your motives day in and day out You did right, but where did you fail the most? Losing ourselves in scriptures, now We are useless to the rest of the world Failing to help thy neighbour out Come on and push them away, for good Another one to save Another one must grow Another one must start expanding Another one to fall on the way Couldn’t do the infinite duties Doubt your motives day in and day out You did right, but where did you fail the most? In silence? In speaking out loud? It’s easier to follow the wolves Without belief, with all your sins how can you satisfy A god that should be everloving through his murdered child Doubt your motives every fucking day You did right, but where did you fail the most? In silence? In speaking out loud? It’s easier to just give up
7.	Trust 05:24	lyrics	buy track
Sick of thinking ‘bout a new beginning When the way she left me haunts me everyday Don’t wanna go into this When it’s made to fail How much do I have to push this? Or do I have to give this up? There might not be much more in life Than the chances I’m getting now I sacrificed my time, my life, my friends All to help her But the final sacrifice I had to make Was let her go Can I trust my own decisions? I haven’t heard from You eversince Glimpses of acceptance showing But from the other side it’s just the same Why do I find myself here? Where was the rest I had? I thought I’d live life on my own Without a problem, I needed no one And now A constant need of attention But the fear of refusal is still here I need comfort You gave me rest when I needed You took my stress away But this all still haunts me And there’s no sign The next one that I can’t see through I’m making all the same mistakes Still so engaging, so enthousiastic So much that I would love to share Am I just looking for a replacement? Trying to move the heaviest rocks Making this harder than it has to be Do I have to prove myself here? Why can’t I let this go? Can’t it all just end now? Or go the other way? Make this easy or kill it off Time for trust Let’s give this away now Can’t make it better either way It’s not my decision to make Although I wish it was
8.	Dependency 04:30	lyrics	buy track
I’ve lost my way of life That nothing ever mattered Just time to spend Waiting out your death Yeah A goal in life, something to live for I wish I never had Stress for nothing But it’s ebbing away Now someone I barely know All can fall apart With no way to fight it This dependency I cannot stand This can’t all fail There’s no way things go wrong in my life Haven’t seen this through Am I overthinking it? Someday I´ll know
9.	Renovate - Instrumental 04:15	info	buy track
10.	Flying - Instrumental 04:54	info	buy track
11.	In Between - Instrumental 07:04	info	buy track
12.	Beyond the Grave - Instrumental 06:11		buy track
13.	Aimless - Instrumental 03:06	info	buy track
14.	Follow the Wolves - Instrumental 04:51		buy track
15.	Trust - Instrumental 05:24	info	buy track
16.	Dependency - Instrumental 04:30	info	buy track

about

This record is my first to feature my own vocals. I never had the idea to do vocals for this record, but it came naturally and it felt like this record really needed it. It's also a lot different then Glimpses, since this record is focussed way more on riffs then it is on atmosphere.